Wednesday, January 1st, 2003
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5:37 pm - My christmas vacation
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i had to spend my christmas vacation down in florida. i know i know not the worst of punishments but.... n i thought positve about it and thought well it will be warm i will get a tan and .... well it was cold while we were down there n didnt get warm till the day we left. i missed my friends n was homesick n then got physically sick so i was walking around miserably in disney world. My grandmother acted liek a bitch most of the time .... i think the only decent thing that came out of the trip was that i got a shopping trip from my grandfather. ne how it all got better when i found myself home on monday night n in davids arms and then i got to spend new years eve n today with him which is nice cause i missed him soooo much. ne way i guess i better get started on my homework for tomorrow even though i am dreading going back to skool! im out
current mood:  bouncy
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Saturday, November 30th, 2002
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6:40 pm
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ok so having a job isnt everything i thought it would be. i woke up with ummmm lets say for the guys sake "not feeling well" at 3 in the morning i had to be to wrok by eight. after tossing and turning forever untill bout 6 i gave up and just got out of bed. so then i had to go to work. people are full of bullshit this time of year. they r so ignorant and i have to put up with them.... so the next time you go shopping somewhere dont be rude or impatient with a sales person because they may be having just a bad of a day as you. ne way the only highlight of my day was josh being able to be there n have lunch with me.
ok so i need to think about what i should get david for christmas. i have so much on my mind right now and i had such a bad day i just want to cry. also i need to think about what to tell david cause he asked me what i want for christmas..... hmmmmmmm you would think he would know me by now argh so sary if you read this help him out cause i want him to think of somehting on his own with a lil help and surprise me cause i havent been surprised wit a christmas gift in a long time. and this i know will be the best ever. i need to save up some money though and get a calling card so i can call david while i am in florida during xmas vacation :-( which while florida may be fun it would be better if david would be there. *sigh* ne who it looks liek i have to go do homework and clean my room so maybe i can find those pics of me and david and the pic of me i wanted to give to josh *sigh some more* ne way i am in a sad mood ne way and i think i will go cry while i am cleaning relieve some stress ahhhh stress i wish i had a personal masousse ;-) later
current mood:  crappy
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Wednesday, November 27th, 2002
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10:30 pm
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so yeah i havent gotten to write much lately cause i just started my new job at the bakery. i work at herman's bakery in kennilworth mall in towson. all i can say is yummy! i am goin to get soooo fat wroking there they let you eat stuff if you want and they have the best stuff. i also luv the cappachinos! yummmm n green tea! but ne how yeah i have been reaaaaaallly busy! i did get to see justin though this past saturday which was awesome cause i havent seen him in forever! i had soooooooo much fun ;-) we saw the new james bond movie DIE ANOTHER DAY. i am sooo tired though. having a job really keep you occupiedi am always off on fridays though cause i promised david since i work sat n most of the time sundays that fri was his day with me. yeah so ne way not much else to say. i would liek to try to get together with megan,sam,josh,christy n justin again but dont ask me when the hell i will have time cause it looks liek i am most liekly going to florida for christmas which i am undecided about how i feel about that one cause i was hoping i could spend christmas with my david although hot tub, tanning, and nothing but sleepin in late is lookin good to me ne way yeah i have to go tomorrow is thanksgiving so i have to get up to help cook early tomorrow cause we r going over my aunts house. so ne way i guess i will t ry to write as soon as i can again. later n HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!!!!
current mood:  devious
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Tuesday, November 19th, 2002
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5:48 pm - am i crazy pleeze someone tell me...?
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sometimes i think i come off to people as a physcotic bitch.... i can think of 3 peeps in particular..... jealousy is very strong but let me explain y i think i have reason to act like that.... wait before i start i want to note i am being completely honest in this entry ok so dont be offended i am stating my feelings and opinions..... ok jessi is davids xgf and also his best frend that is a gurl (only problem is he still has a baby crush on her) which isnt so bad but listen up.... ok i dont have a problem with the fact that they r best frenz n that they hang out but in the way they display it.....
for example the other night i went to the movies with jessi, sam , david, my sis and mah best frend sara, and jessi grabbed davids arm and was liek rubbing it i thin kthat is a lil beyond best frenz. and here is the other thing jessi wants to spend the night at davids house which i convinced david to cancel because to be honest the thought of that happening is liek well making me sick to my stomach and some people totally agree with me and a very very small percent say well dont u trust him the question isnt trust here the question is it necessary. ok i am going to be really honest for a minute i have to admit in the back of mmy mind that yes trust has a veeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeery small impact on me cause no offense but david does have a history of cheating which an unknown source has told me about but even though in davids defense i know would be completely faithful there is that tainted fear in the way back of my head and he has to understand that. and yes he has prooved to me enough these past almost 6 months that he truely loves me but anyway so i do give him alot of credit its just i wish him n jessi would understand justin and my feelings on the way they act around eachother and jessi keeps saying she understands and wants to be frenz with me but untill she truely understands and actually does somehting about it and stops acting liek she cares n then not doing shit well the hope of us ever being good frenz isnt looking too good. i mean i know she means well but she really isnt doign ne thing to help the situation here n isnt being too considerate. i mean the other day we r sitting down eating dinner at sams house when she suddenly springs on me that she is spending the night at davids and has the audacity to assume that i am ok with it when she knows that i dont even liek them hanging out alone! and its not just me thats the point 97 percent of peeps i have asked about this was liek what the hell thas a bad idea. so ......ahhh this is driving me insane..... i just wish that they would get or at least try to understand where me n justin r coming from... they say they do but they dont seem to be taking ne action on it. one last thing i have to admit i am frenz with my x and i hug him all the time and OCASSIONALLY kiss him on the cheek but...... i dont cuddle with him n shit ok that is where i draw the line and even cuddling is ok when appropiate liek when justin was trying to comfort me the one night i ran away from home cause of mah parents but not all the time and to the extent that they do and my fear is that if thats what they do when i am sitting there what happens when i m not there and there in surrounding temptation can his love be successful against the hardest test known to human kind? share your opinion if you care to
current mood:  frustrated
current music: eminem (8 mile soundtrack)
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Wednesday, November 13th, 2002
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6:53 pm - ok well..........
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nothing really exciing happened except that katie saw justin yesterday which wasnt fair but thats ok because sam informed him yesterday that we claim him for next weekend but its still not fair i have to wait that long but thas ok. ne way enoguh about me complaining..... i had a good day in skool i guess it was ok ne wayz, i was so mad about gilmore girls last night because dean broke up with roari and thats not right dean loved her grrrrrrrrr ne way jess is such trash i dont know why roari lieks him! k nothing else to write about... have to go do dance homework ....
current mood:  flirty
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Tuesday, November 12th, 2002
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4:19 pm
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Monday, November 11th, 2002
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3:34 pm - the best weekend
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ok this weekend i got a gurls night out and i got to see my david! friday night i went over sam's house n spent the night for the first time which was awesome. we stayed up till liek 1 in the morning or so and watched what lies beneath and coyote ugly which were two great movies. ok so ne way let me start by commenting on that and then i will clue you i further. her parents were so nice. her dad was a character. he was nice and made me feel welcome, her mom seemed to be very close with sam and it made me realize that that was what i wanted to have with my mom and my family..... and sam is gorgeous. so she may say that i am an amazing person and that she is jealouse but you see i am the one that is truely envious of her, of what she has with jessi me n sara are close but not that close and i want a friend like that..... she is so lucky. she seems to have it all. anywayz it changed my views n i had a talk with my mom sat night when i got home about how i wanted to have a better relationship with her. ok so then sat we woke up and had breakfast and we went to towson mall me in search of job applications and sam in search of something to cover her up lol. we had fun first we just looked aroudn the stores then we ahd lunch went back to those stores and tried on numerous pieces of clothing and then put them all back cause we had no money. i saw my cousin doug which i hadnt seen in forever so that was kool and we had frappachinos (i think) lol from starbucks and a pretzel. while we were standing in line for the pretzel me n sam had a convo about justin's butt. i told her it looked like a muffin and she was liek huh?
it was histerical anyways then we stopped to rent movies and then watched one of them when we got home and then i had to go or more like i wanted to go at that point because of a comment jessi made at dinner but i wont go inot that because we talked about it even though i feel really bad for me being the cause of her n daivd having to cancel plans and everyhting as far as i know is ok now. then i was all depressed about not being able to see david over the weekend and about the fact i had to goto church and i turned around sunday morning while talking to a frend of mine n there he was and i could not have been happier!i think i m most happiest because me n jessi r finally ok and getting along and that is really kool.so my weekend was the best in a loooooong time. oh and i am getting a job soon at the bakery my mom works at so that will kool cause i will have a little money. friday me n david r going to see harry potter i am so excited i cannot wait to find out what happens in the second movie! i will write about how it was! ne wayz i better be getting to my dance comp homework for skool -kk
current mood:  cheerful
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Sunday, November 3rd, 2002
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3:42 pm
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3:25 pm - i am sooo bored so i took ANOTHER yes another quiz lol
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3:14 pm
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3:02 pm - awww
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Saturday, November 2nd, 2002
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10:03 pm - he ditched me.... i guess i really is bros b4 hos
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damn it! this is the first time ever i have been able to stay mad at david for htis long i have mascara stinging my eyes n dripping, peanutbutter all over my nose n cheeks(dont ask), and a half gallon of cherry choclate chip icecream in mah tummy. wow this hasnt happened since i broke up wit josh!
yeah i am probly overreacting cause i m pmsin its jus grrrrrrr not fair. i am getting punished for david deciding to ditch justin today. i mean he is goin to a party with him tonite god!!!!!!!!!! and mah mom wont even let me go over saras n spend the night to get it all out she is makin me go to church tomorrow when i dont even feel liek goin out in public n sure then it wouldnt be such a big deal cause i wanted david to come over monday since we have off tuesday but mom said she doesnt want to ask mrs rebecca to come out again to pick him up and she cant take him home so........... fucking hell this is not fucking fair, scuse me while i go cry myself to sleep cause josh failed at cheering me up hence y the icecream n peanut butter...... although i guess that doesnt explain y it is on mah face dont ask i was acting liek a nutcase..... god lets just say if i am still this mad tomorow argh grrrrrrrr #@$@#@#%$@#@ ahhhhhhhhhhh so i am fucked...... and i am ditched n i am all alone ..... can u say katherine is a loser...... GOODBYE CRUEL WORLD
current mood:  pissed off
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Wednesday, October 30th, 2002
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7:27 pm
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7:03 pm - ok so i havent written in a while....
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yeah i was and still kinda am supposed to be grounded from the net but shhh what mah parents dont know cant hurt um. ne wayz today i saw brigaddon at skool which was pretty kool. then i stayed for anime club at skool with david which wasnt as bad as i thought was going to be. Ok so maybe sara cohil is a lil weird ok ALOT weird but she is ok to put up with i guess i was being too judgemental but i am still not denying the fact she is weird n needs a phsycatrist (i dont think i spelled that right). Then David's dad took us to david's house. all during the car ride all i could do is stare at the both of them n see how much they r alike which is probly why they have so many "tiffs" they r exactly liek mah dad n mah grandfather. n they both have those deep brown eyes that tell u something different, most of the time what they r feeling, each time u look at them. the both have that same sturdy face that is strong but caring n the same strong arms that are comforting.
ne wayz then we got back to davids house n i feel bad cause i distracted him (oops) from his homework. hehehehe. it wasnt mah fault honest. ne wayz i am determined to introduce mahself to jeremy so i start talking to him n then i can bring up the subject of sara (u know get that inside info) yeah i need to do that grrrrr. i know she is mad about him n i want her to be happy n i think that if she took a chance she would find out she is worth more then she thinks to him i can almost bet on that. this morning when david walked in i was terified when he didnt greet me in his usual manner. i need to start watchign what i say even though i dont mean to lie i do but i do it so that i dotn hurt david. but ahhh i realize that no matter what it is wrong. ne wayz tomorrow i am going trick or treating with david (yes i am 15 n yes i am still going trick or treating, hey free candy what the hell u rnt an adult to u r 18 so.....).i cant wait i am going to be a naughty cowgurl.
ok here is the deal mah cheerleading pics should be coming back soon but i cant figure out how to post pics can ne one help me out? let me know if u can. ok i dont know how often i am goin to be getting on now cause of mah mom. she lied to mah dad and put us in deb tot make a long story short. mah dad said that if she does it again that they r getting a divorce not kool. i have gone through 2 weeks of them non stop fighting and bitching n me crying cause of the hell me n mah sis r being put through. we most liekly rnt goin to florida for xmas vacation ne more n we cant afford a christmas tree or presents so we have to suffer cause mah mom fucked up n then is feeling sry for herself cause she has to go out n get a job to help out. arg and to top it all off i have to give up horseback riding n dance. but i am going to start working in exchange for mah horse ack riding lessons. and i might get a job in the near future. ok i am tired now n i better get goin to the shower so i can go to bed im out - KK
current mood: content
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Tuesday, October 29th, 2002
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8:05 pm
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Sunday, October 20th, 2002
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6:58 pm
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6:40 pm - once again i have fucked up.....
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last ngiht my parents got into a fight. i got scared so i snuck out of the house n they got scared cause they didnt know where i was and i had never done ne thing liek that before. now i am in major shit.David gave me a good lecture last night. I am full of regret today, i feel lonely n sad n trapped. i wish i could talk to daivd, the one person who makes me happy, but he is out with his dad today n tomorrow n he probly doesnt have his cell or he isnt answering it. i just wish this bad dream would all go away.
current mood: depressed
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Thursday, October 10th, 2002
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7:49 pm - ne wayz ....
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well i had to cut mah last entry short cause mah dad came downstairs n we got into a BIG fight! ne ways i m on a cheer strike atm cause mah coach was being a bitch to mah bf n i defended him n talked ack to her cause he means more to me then the stupid squad ever will n i was liek i m not cheering the game n i left. n i dont intend on goin to practice tomorrow either! i m going to go hopefully to see tuck everlasting with david if he decides he wants to go with me. as for my weekend i will be writing mah 4-6 page paper for dance, studying for the psat's n shoping on sunday with justin for david's birthday present! oh yeah n if you all can remember (whoever reads this i know u dont know him but....) email him on november 22 or before at vlakrados@hotmail.com and wish him a happy birthday pleeze. thanx
ne wayz i gots to go now n do homework. -katherine
current mood: annoyed
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Monday, October 7th, 2002
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6:37 pm - its been a while...
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well not alots been happening besides not havin cheerleading practice as much cause of those shootings. but i have mah back hand spring now! yea for me! i promise as soon as i figure out how to post mah cheer pics i will. (for ne one who wants to c them ne wayz) but i m so nervouse about our competition in a couple of weeks! i went to homecomin last saturday with david it was great n the night before was our 4 month anniversary so he took me out to dinner at jillies n made me get in front of peeps n slow dance with him which was so cute of him lol. omg i had such a great two nights. then sat i went to cheer practice n then got a pedicure n then got heather to do mah hair n then i went to homecoming. o wow it was great, an incredible night.
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Monday, September 23rd, 2002
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7:25 pm - yeah well ......
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lets see this week has been better then last week. I have been in a much better mood this week. I spent the night with mah aunt on friday night after the funeral and we got to bond a little too so that was kool. we looked at year books and i was the entertainment for the night i made everyone laugh. i was soooooo wound up. but i think it will be a while before my aunt stops crying at night over my uncle, maybe never but all i know is with time she will be ok. we all must go on with our lives, but maybe we can learn something from my uncle's death. i know i have. it has made me not take anythign for gratned i tell my mom n dad n sister n mah boyfrend everyday that i love them n i need to start tellin mah bff sara too. because they mean so much to me and u never no they can be taken away in an instance , so dont take ne thing for granted. i have also been inspired to be a better person. to live life to the fullist and try to make a difference in someone's life. maybe even raise money for throat cancer in honor of my uncle. already i have taken to heart this advice that my dear friend justin gave me and i advise you all to do the same. our lives are a gift from God, what we do with them are our gifts to Him.
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